Life has been emotional the last few days. We've been talking more and more about leaving our home, we have about 20 days and they are moving fast. I was pouring my little heart out to my husband. I had started thinking about our history in this home and I realized that our whole lives together have been at this house. Since day one. I met Brian for our first date in his back yard. Most of our dates were in this house, cooking each other meals, watching movies, doing puzzles, and playing games. He proposed to me in our drive way. We planned our wedding on this living room floor. We became parents and brought both of our babies home here. We've loved here, we've fought here, we've grown here, and we've become a happy family here. So I am pretty darn emotional.
For those of you who don't personally know my husband he is not an emotional person. I mean he's not a robot but emotions are not the first thing that come to his mind. I tend to think that way, emotions first. So I asked him as we were laying in bed "Are you not sad? Does this all not make you sad? How is this not bothering you" Then I took a breath from my frantic sadness and he had a moment to respond. His response is almost always the same "I guess I haven't thought about it." I hear this from him all the time and it baffles me every. single. time. He then told me he thought he would be sad when it was time to do the "lasts." The last time we did laundry here, the last bath we give the boys here, our last meal, the last night we all sleep here, those things that we do all the time that make up our everyday lives. Cue the tears again, I hadn't even thought about those things happening.
So while I have been thinking about our past, he's thinking about all of our upcoming lasts. I would have never ever have guessed I would already be in tears about this. I've been taking more everyday pictures lately and I'm so glad I have been.
I'm going to go pack some more and try not to cry!-Rachael
I am a mom and a photographer. My love of motherhood led me to photograph all things from bellies to birth and beyond.